Monday, September 26, 2011

Curing Insomnia

I like my freedom here at college. I like not having a curfew and being able to stay up until whenever I want and not having to be worried that I’m the only one around that can’t sleep. I hear the chain smokers every night that stay outside my window until 4 a.m. They were a nuisance before but now they have become a comfort. Things are all too quiet when it’s raining out, and there aren’t any strangers hanging around not trying to whisper. I end up missing how their voices intertwine with my half-dreams.
I tell my parents that the things here are fine, but they're not. I haven't been sleeping. I've been thinking too much every night. My mind wanders to far away places when my eyes close. My brain won't settle itself down enough to allow me to sleep until very late. it isn't fair, but sometimes it is worth falling asleep in class.
I like the feeling of being on the edge of sleep. I like listening to what my subconscious is saying through my dreams. It really is all very scientific and introspective. Who knew i would find out so much about myself just from my lack of sleep.
I just don't like the fact that I'm trapped in my own head with my thoughts, while all the others sleep (except the chain smokers). Why is it that everyone else can drift away while i cannot? I haven't slept in ages. I don't think there is a cure. I'm a casualty of insomnia

Thursday, September 8, 2011

I took this photo last weekend in Frederick, Maryland. I was in one of those kinds of moods. I want to start carrying my camera around with me from now on, because inspiration and perfect photo moments are so easy to miss. I don't want to miss them anymore. It is so disappointing, for a perfect moment to come... and you notice it, and then... it's just gone. Time passes so quickly sometimes. Think about it. You just read this sentence and now it's in the past... but that was just a second ago...
That's crazy talk... but it's true. Every passing second makes history and makes up a person's past.


This is me, from a while ago... like last summer. it was the only photo on my laptop that looked artsy enough and different for my new blog. I never thought i would get a blog... but someone told me that it would be a good idea because i want to go into communications. Media is the new way to make a name in this world... so i've heard.
I really want this blog to be casual and i want to be able to talk about anything. I love expressing myself freely. I never want to be anything that i'm not... but that's hard to do when i want to be everything. If i could experience every single feeling and event in the world, i would be the happiest girl alive. i want to write, travel, take photos, eat, run, fly, sing, dance and breathe in everything there is on this fine planet. I can't wait to start my journey and document my thoughts here.
So this is just a little part of me,
For you to see.